well, it's been a while since i wrote here. not that i don't want to, i just seem to have lost all my energies every time i came home from work that i refuse to open my lil' notebook to even check my email, let alone write and update my blog.
time surely pass by so quick. it feels only like a blink of an eye that i made the decision to go home and finally did. that was six months ago! though my decision was quite sudden, i had lined all the necessary prep to make me ready to face and adjust to indonesia. and i thought i managed well. everytime someone asked me if i find it hard to come back to indonesia, i always answered that i had prepared myself well, so i kinda oversee what's coming and therefore, i'm not as shocked as i should be.
unfortunately, you can't lie to your body. though i had my brain fixed to the idea that traffic jam is common in jakarta, or the heat is natural around here.. my body resists to that. the result? i found myself lying in bed for days for god-knows-what reasoning. one day i'd be in perfect health, doing wall climbing or hanging out with some friends at hard rock cafe, next thing i know.. my body aches all over and i can't figure out why. one day my skin is nice and smooth, enjoying the humidity of jakarta, next thing i know i found blotches and redness around my body and i can't figure out why.
so i went to the doctor and she told me that i'm experiencing stress. i begged to differ cuz i don't think my workload is heavy enough to cause me stress that resulting in physical issues like this, at least not yet. but she insists that sometimes we don't realize that our body is the one experiencing stress whether we like it or not.
alot of people told me that things will be different when i go back to jakarta. and i'm 100% make sure that i understand that and therefore, i can transform smoothly. but i guess, my physique needs more time to adjust. the adjustment to the polluted air, water, and change of climate really brought out the physical changes that my body can experience. i can only hope it will go away soon enough and my body starts to adjust so i can live my life healthily and without fear of breaking down in the middle of my good days.
until then, i'm taking it day by day. one illness at a time.
:: sLesTa
